I am a failure.

now that we have that out of the way, i'd like to explain why june was such a pivital month and why it went wrong.

You see, i thought i wasn't having enough fun being single. its been about a year or more sience i've been in a real relationship and i hadn't changed the whole ideal of being 'taken'. so i decided, after a few of the soon to be mentioned ladies made reference to coming to 'visit' in june.

man, i shouldn't be trying to write a serious entry while watching family guy...anyways...

so girl one (i say one because of the time frame) was at the time the only sure thing, we even set a date to it, but as time went on i just couldn't bring myself to follow through. we set the date because of graduation, then it got pushed back, now its pushed back again. it'll never happen. thats my life, sure things never happen. I don't complain about girl one because shes not doing it for the right reasons.

girl two ... lets see wichone is girl two ... oh yea... her... this one was just an odd occurrance. she was into having fun and messing arround, but wouldn't want to be seen with me or aknowlage our 'fun time'. i knew nothing was going to come of it, but i was willing to try. nope, she blew it. i was all for going out with girl two and it would have been fun. but after she made an ass out of herself and has such a two dimentional view on things she's now just one of the girls.

girl three, is fun. its all just fun and games, we know allot about eachother but she thinks shes 'all talk' so shes not following through. its early yet, things could still happen, but she...

damn futurama is on now.....damn you tv....

... shes a wreck. i coudln't imagine dating her, but we've already determined that this is going to end this summer. a summer fling, but its just more stress

Girl four, The Dark Horse is somthing elce. I never thought i could be as smooth as when i asked her to messa rround this summer. the bad thing is theres also no follow through. always stalling. The thing is, i would go out with her in the drop of a hat. i can really see somthing besides random sex. in all honesty, i dont even think i would need sex to enjoy being with her. but my thing is, she wont take me seriously. i'd ask her out 30 times over but shed just say awww...

so thats all i got for now. I'm feeling a little lonely. i miss being with someone. and if things go well for me, i'll bag me a good girl.

but for now, i gotta go watch tv, cause its the thing to do.


adios