- Why do i find myself listening to the songs that were my undoing?

- 1:30

- sleeping so i can bleed myself for money

- the energiser bunny ain't got shit on the copper top

- SSDD

- i wish my job wouldn't cut into my social life so much...

- if i disapear for a time, wich no one will notice anyways, dont worry caue i know you dont care

- Neal Oliver: So what are you? An angel or a god?
O.W. Grant: No, no, I'm just a guy that likes to mess with people's heads.

- O.W. Grant: Every event is inevitable - if it wasn't, it wouldn't happen

- Oh what am I? What am I darlin'?I got years to wait...

- why can i only be smoth when the situation calls fo sandpaper?

- i feel like i've got a trouble with tribbles, but the tribbles are a buch of little things that just keep fucking adding up until i cant breath and i'm drownding in tribble piss.

- why does the end always seem to come quicker when you all you want to do is enjoy the begining?



oh that last one was good!

i'm in a weird state, i think i'm gonna watch interstate 60 and make myself realise that "Every event is inevitable - if it wasn't, it wouldn't happen"

and now your moment of zen - http://joecartoon.atomfilms.com/pages/boydog/

my away message tonight:

hiding in the best place ever...

...right in front of you

in my mind its so true, i'm so widely known and my life is such an open book for everyone to read or not at there leasure that no one wants to get close to me.

its my own fault. i'm a social whore and i have to learn to deal with the consiquences of that fact.

I'll be that guy that throws all the coolest get togethers, with all the things everyone elce wants in life... but they mean nothing to me.


its times like these that i'm glad i have music to reasure me that there is hope for the socailly, morally, and relationship damned out there.

bare bones fact - i can never settle down, even when i want to a little part of me is holding back saying 'you'll lose too much by letting someone in'.


i'm too comfortable, and being my random old self isn't helping. I'm seeing all of my friends get married and being in realtionships that really mean somthing. and i'm still in the busch leauge, the last guy picked for the team.


No one wants me to be any more than a party favor.


even my close friends can only tollerate me for a little while.



i'm too depressed to type anymore, let allone think up some quirky ending staments that i bold face to bring everyone elce joy but me...