thats what i'm in the mood for. Somthing to symbolize new beginings. i'm finally at a spot i thought i wouldnt get to for a while, Happiness. I know its cheezy, and whatnot, but you know, i love what i have and if you cant love that, your doomed to keep searching.

just felt like saying somthing helfway deep.



so i'm poor and my job is going to piss me off... i say going because i know i'm going to get thrown under the bus by my boss and shits going to have to change arround work. but you know, that could be a good thing. things are just too lacidazical at my work. It sucks that i'm going to get blamed for the shortcomings, and i hope it doesnt affect my reviews and whatnot... but who knows. i'm going to try and use it as an excuse to get shit done at work. i need compitent people. about half my staff are idiots, and they hardly listen.



I kind of have a hobby now. I'm peicing back a few computers so i caneither upgrade or sell them off... like 150 for a decent computer, depending on how much i have to invest in them. so if anyone knows anyone that needs a new computer, let me know i'll see what i can do.



I've got a pass to the princeton club in madison here, and i like it. i've been playing a good amount of raquet ball and i'm gonna try and get a morning ritual going on. probably doing it afyter work, clearing my mind... or before so i can have more energy at work. I'm gonna try and eat better too. paul helped by getting my groceries last week, almost all stuff i can make a ton of meals from without going to Wendy's. and just when the 6 peice nuggets are on the dollar menu... bad timing, but oh well...

on that note, me and phil are re-scedualing the mexico trip, i feel horrible doing it, but i'm fucking broke. even though i work all the fucking time.... its sad really, i'm over worked, but i have a nice vacation coming up.

i'm using part of my 2+ weeks of paid vacation time to go to NYC for the superbowl (I know its not in NYC, i'm just going there to watch it... on tv), i know, it doesnt make much sence for me to go to NYC to watch tv, but damn.. its been 5 years sence i went to NYC to live for a summer, and i miss it. plus i feel bad that i havent gotten back to them. but i have been poor. but when tickets were 78$ for round trip, Fucking A man, i had to go.

then a few days with the girl. shes great, the only way i can describe it, great. anyone who's been arround me in the last 10 months has seen how i am, i'm changed from who i was in college, but you know, i like who i am, and what i feel arround here is somthing i dont want to miss, ever.

i know i have a way to go, but i can imagine myself, wandering arround at dusk in the rain. just letting the rain wash over me and smiling.



oh, and happy 3rd birthday blog...




Family: i got their old king size bed, wich rocks. never slept better. there realizing i have my own life, and i feel bad that there becoming less a part of it.

Hobby: i have to find time to make a bed, but the computer thing is starting out ok.

Social: I still don't get out, but going to the princeton club i have meet some new people, and i keep getting invites from people at work to hang out...

Money: sat down today at the kitchen table and depressed myself.... anyone need some favor done for cash?

Work: time will tell...

Females: 10 months... i think the return polocy has expired, heh. great, i wish everyone could be as happy as i am... except that guy.... fuck that guy.

Drama: i don't have time for drama, except the ocasional leak from WW, thats about it.

School: ... i would say thinking about it, cause i am... but not too seriously...

Friends: workin on it, still schooling Slim at R-ball

Health: I had kidney stones shortly after the last post, and i'm ok now, i just have to treat myself better. and the tumns was a fucking good idea.....

Song: Gym class heros. all i have on repeat....

Last Laugh: hanging out at the bars last night to take the edge off.....making fun of dennis of course...