thats what i think is going on... weird... i dreally don't have much to say even though allot is going through my head... meh...

so this year i'm hoping for the almost complete oposite of last year. I don't want to get to the point of bulegerancy that i was, ad i'm staying away from concreete stairs.

i'm still not sure where i want to go, madison or here? i'm probably not going to decide until the day of, and i might party hop.

my goal is to have someone to kiss at newyears, as the ball drops. this more than likely will not happen.

speaking of more than likely not happening...

my new years resolutions! yes i said resolutions.... as in plural.

1.) keep tack of my finances. know better where my money goes. maybe balance my checkbook once a month. budget for bills. whatnot...

2.) improve myself... yes i know thats very vauge, but being at a highpoint in my feeling good, i'm ready for some changes. like wearing work clothes, and non work clothes... dressing up and not wearing dress clothes. giving up soda. watching what i eat. doing situps. stuff like that.

i don't have any reason not to do these things, there very simple and kind of comon sence...


but who ever said i had comon sence?

So here it is, the actual aniversary/birthday/christmas of my Blog. the source of problems, pain and mostly relif.

I got in from the LONG...10 minute.... drive back to ferris from my house. my mom was sick so we didnt have dinner, me my dad and adam wen to go see King Kong. it was decent. i've been listening to the CD i made for kari's present allot sence i (well, tom made it, but i put the songs together) made it. i know i'm ok with everything, because its like before we started dating. we're friends, thats what i want. i really want to get back into singing, like better than in the shower. thats why i hope i get into celebreation, if its still happening... thats a whole different issue. but i feel so at home when i'm preforming. so at peace. and i know i can do it. i know i can relay the passion and emotion because it flows through me when i listen to it and i have the talent, or at least i think i do.

i tried to text or call everyone on my list, if i didn't i'm sorry, we should hang out more so i feel like i know you and your not just a number in 'THE PHONEBOOK OF DEATH' out of convenience. shitty to say, but i felt bad not sending some out because i didn't know that person well enough.

riccardo is here with me. he's cleaning the WHOLE house... a daunting task. once i'm done here i'm gonna help untill arround 11 when i'm gonna go to perkins to meet up with noah shultz, one of my best freinds from highschool thats in town for a day or two for christmas. then hanging out with tommy, who knows.

much better than last year, the reason i started this.

and to that i say, yes Al Dobyns, i read your blog, and i'm going to stel your year end post.

January
1. did you have a new year's resolution this year?
"i resolve not to fallow through on any resolution"

2.Who kissed you at midnight?
no one, it might be another year for that

3. does it snow where you live?
Fuckin' A it does

4. do you like hot chocolate?
i didn't used to, but after a night at bestbuy i enjoy it

5. have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop?
i was going to be this year, maybe someday

February
1. who was your valentine in 2005?
no-one, its only been once i had one

2. what did your valentine get you?


3. when you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?
tried to, but always wanted to make a special one for the girl everyone was after, but it was just shuffled away with everyone elces


March
1. are you Irish?
a very small percentage

2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?
enough not to get pinched

3.what did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005?
went to class, drank heavy for an hour, went to more class with beads on, went to work

April
1. Do you like the rain?
a warm rain is always welcome

2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?
i always think of them too late.

3. do you get tons of candy on Easter?
no, never really have

May
1. What's your favorite kind of flower?
i can visualize it but i don't know what its called

3. Do you like the spring?
it always brings hope, i like hope

4. Finish the phrase: April showers....
make for good mud-puddles to play in

5. What would you think of as a spring color?
pink, salmon, pastel colors

June
1. What year did/do you graduate from school?
2001/ if i keep swiching i don't know if i ever will

2. Did you go on any vacations last June?
might have visited friends arround WI, but thats about it

July
1.What did you do on the 4th of july?
HA, good times up north, minaqua area, almost to the U.P. good times on the lake

2. do you go on any vacations during this month?
up north, that was about it

August
1. did you do anything special to end off your summer?!
got stressed for pledging, met kari

2. what was your favorite summer memory of '05?
August 8th. perfect.

3. do you go swimming a lot in the summer?
only once


September
1. Did you attend school/college in '05?
yup. barely.

2. who is/was your favorite teacher?
professor bowen, she was down to earth and didn't care i slept as long as i understood the shit

3. do you like fall better than summer?
"i'll call, i hate the fall"

October
1. what was your favorite Halloween costume ever?
my transformer costumer when i was like 4

2. what's your favorite candy?
cherry jolly ranchers, those peanutbutter things, candy necklaces

3. Did you dress up for Halloween this year?
not really, i wore my knew underware, robe, and slippers. everyone thought i was Jake Bares.., ha

November
1. whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving?
the hale house, we don't do much as for family events.

2. Do you like stuffing?
hell yea!

3. What are you thankful for?
the peopel that have helped me through it all, the ones that will be ther, and the ones i have yet to meet. my parents for making me who i am.


December
1. do you celebrate Christmas?
my family doesnt do much, but we do go to church and exchange gifts, then go to a movie, its tradission

2. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?
no, but thats a good idea for next year

3. What do you want this year for Christmas?
someone to guide me down the right path, a roadmap to life, someone to hold.

4. What's the best present you ever got for Christmas?
my snoopy pillow, may it rest in peace.

5. do you like cold weather?
only when i'm arround people who dispise it, cause i do well in cold

6. How would u rate your 05?
like i said in the last post, allot happened. but all in all it was a good year. i would hate to lose the memories, but this year wasn't extreemly grand, enough to remember as the best year or worst... just annother year.






so there it is, its not snowing, but i wish it would. cause i know i have you all out there. good or bad, your with me in my life and will be always in my memory. this year in and of itself might not be rememberd, but i will never forget the times and people i have gotten to know and continued to be arround and think about.

i wish i could take a picture with all of you, so it would be with me forever. a way of saying i love you all in one way or another.

Merry Christmas.

... So in your Christmas prayers this year, Alfie asked me if I'd ask you
to say a prayer for the wind, and the water, and the wood,
and those who live there, too.
-- John Denver & The Muppets - Alfie: The Christmas Tree