i fell in love.

to bad she's not real.

to bad she'll never feel the same.

to bad she's perfect.

to bad she doesn't know my name.




wow..... that was purely out of my ass poetry, cause i'm fairly waisted, and i just figured out that rhymed.


yea, FUCK FEBUARY... thats all i gotta say about that. the only girl that would fesably be interested in me is fictional. now if theres somthing more depressing than that, i dare you to think of it, cause you might break into tears. i know, wah wah wah, worlds smallest violin... whatever, fuck you all you happy people. I have no one, no one i can love, no one i can be intimate with, no one i can hug, no one i can go out of my way to feel ike there te queen of someones universe. no one . all i hear about is how other guys are stupid and nieve, how that no one can take my advice and that the VAST majority of the male populus is severly female-retarded.

if the nice guys finish last, i'm the guy waving the flag, i'm the judge of the race, i'm the marshal. I dont even get to participate in the FUCKING race. why?

cause i know too much aperintly, i'm the best weapon a guy could have, if they would just fucking listen to me all would be good. i see so many stpuid guys making asses out of themselves to great girls, and those girls keep going back to the same assholes because there less of an asshole than the last asshole that they just broke up with!!!!


GAHHH!!!....


i wish i could stop giving advice, i would love to stop realizing that being the dick and saying stupid things to a woman who loves me was wrong, then maybe i can get some, maybe i'll be in a relationship. maybe its cause every girl i've had a decent relationship with i've NEVER HAD A SERIOUS ARGUMENT WITH... think of that guys... i've been with 2 outstanding girls.



thats right all you fuckers who think i'm a whore, who think that i'm a player just because i have the periodic table of sex poster. i've had a serious relationship with @... DOS.... TWO FEMALES... and i still adore them both. those women relised that there was somthing different about me. they gave me the fucking time of day. they were happy at least for a short time.


it all boils down to this. I wont be happy, i have to realise this, because people my age, eveyone my age, eveypone REMOTELY close to my age is looking for somthing as far away from a smart relationship as possible.



i can't wait to move to madison.



i can't wait to go away.




i can't wait to find love.




cause i know love is waiting for me. but where i have no clue.










FUCK FEBUARY!!!

so its here, and its come on fairly early.

I hate being single. thats why i'm gonna like moving out. I'm the only one in this house that is single. and i hate it. I'd love to move on but i cant make the move. its disgusting to me. I love being there for everyone and i'd like to have my own life and hapiness again. i'd like to share that with someone.

To have someone to make me smile, to shoot the shit with, to be comfortable saying nothing and just being with. Someone who can be there for me when i feel like this. Someone that i can be afectionate with, and i can do nice things for for no reason at all.

but no. I'm a bachelor. I'm the college bachelor that is fun to be arround, the dependable one, with time on his hands to help others out, to be a good chum, to be there for your needs.

thats not who i want to be. yea, its close, but i would love to have that person that i could escape to, the one person that i can hold and feel at peace.


i was told i was 'such a girl' because i liked cuddling. so sue me. i want human contact.


not exactly 1:30, more like 1:15...



and i bet by now, i'll have over 1,000 hits. sence like september.... thanks for reloading a bunch you 5 people that read this.



Family: Havent stopped by in a while, i should make the time
Fraternity: RUSH BABY! WOOO
Social: I need to get a taco night reunion going
Money: coasting to the next payday again, but its ok, i have to get a credit card though
Work: Waiting for madison, but trying to to say 'fuck it, i'm out of here soon' tooo much
Females: ...read above post....
Drama: none, now that i said that, lay it on me
School: just gotta enroll... that should be easy and 30$
Friends: madison will be good to me, i hope...
Health: i have to start doing somthing.... ANYTHING, cause i have the awesome potential of being atractive
Song: Teenage Dirtbag - Wheatus
Last Laugh: Tlyer's 21st birthday at the bars "i cant take a shot with my eyes open"

ahh to be hapy...


just thought you should all know the true meaning of hapiness