... no, not young Asians with power... just a great and powerfull scream that can be heard over the rooftops.

useually i proclaim this as loud as possible when i know no one can hear me, espacially in the car (i have MANY more serious mental issues, thats one of the fun ones.) but this itme, this time its for a reason i have talked about on heree entirely too much and have done nothing about.

i yawp because i need to change. i have just gotten back from finding out i blew YET ANOTHER headgasket, yes, i'm 2 for 3 in totaling cars (some mexicans did tiki in... rest in peices...). wich makes me think of my money situaton, wich i havent been doing so well oon...

granted, i havent been in the red or having to beg, borrow, and steal ...


as much...


but its still looming, that i dont have control. not that i NEED control, but damnit, i need to be comfortable and if i cant save enough for emergencies then i'm not in control.

ontop of the car issue, i have work. i love my job, way too much. but the fact of the matter is, i dont see the bright and cheerie future anymore. i see me stuck in some dead end store that i cant do anything about. i have this great opourtunity of being at a new store, and i get fucked by no bonuses and no support.

YAWP!!!

god damn. i just cant win. i finally havent been having any of my really bad acid reflux problems. i went to a nutritionist, and all i have to do is lose some weight, et better and keep taking my meds...

wake up an hour earlier, workout, and actually get a meal in before work...

doent sound hard at all... but fuck no, i cant do that... I'll sleep in just cause i want to...

YAWP!!!

damnit.... i'm naked, i shaved my hair off, i have a ton of laundry to do, and i have no money for food or rent...


fuck me sideways...