my away message tonight:

hiding in the best place ever...

...right in front of you

in my mind its so true, i'm so widely known and my life is such an open book for everyone to read or not at there leasure that no one wants to get close to me.

its my own fault. i'm a social whore and i have to learn to deal with the consiquences of that fact.

I'll be that guy that throws all the coolest get togethers, with all the things everyone elce wants in life... but they mean nothing to me.


its times like these that i'm glad i have music to reasure me that there is hope for the socailly, morally, and relationship damned out there.

bare bones fact - i can never settle down, even when i want to a little part of me is holding back saying 'you'll lose too much by letting someone in'.


i'm too comfortable, and being my random old self isn't helping. I'm seeing all of my friends get married and being in realtionships that really mean somthing. and i'm still in the busch leauge, the last guy picked for the team.


No one wants me to be any more than a party favor.


even my close friends can only tollerate me for a little while.



i'm too depressed to type anymore, let allone think up some quirky ending staments that i bold face to bring everyone elce joy but me...