-yea, i'm giving up on flirting

-its pointless

-just gets in the way of things

-[i mean] vivatious flirting that wont go anywhere cause it just wont

-i'm not going to go out of my way not to [flirt], i'm just going to tone it down

-i just realise that i wont have time to get any [ass, action, ect.], so why tease if theres no chance for follow through?

-i realise that i'm just begining to get busy, and who needs added stress? so i'm just not going to think that i can get any action so i'm not stressed out that i'm not getting any, even though i'm flirting

-in my head, i think a girl might be atracted to me enough to follow through, so i put extra effort into it, effort i could use elcewhere, and it never ends up going anywhere. so why flirt

-i'm just finally doing somthing about it

-i can still flirt, i just wont as much, and it doesnt mean i'm going to become heartless, i just have to face facts [that i can use my energy better elcewhere]

-...it doesnt make me happy to realize that no one cares what i think after being strung allong. its more damage control, i cant get worse from here

-no one cares that i'm more than a sideshow, like i said in my blog "a bit part in every one elces play"

-yea, ok, some people care. and those are the people that matter. but on a whole no one seems to think that i'm any more than that guy who does crazy things

-it just sucks sometimes being a sideshow act

- it sucks being complex when most people think your simple

- cause [people] expect me to be like peanuts all the time

-at least 3 times now ive had people wonder why i'm "down" when i'm just sitting here doing my thing

-being andy

-i dont get outwardly depressed, theres no point to that either

-i came to that realisation a long time ago

-just brings others down

-if i'm down, theres a reason for it, i dont need other people to feel sory for me, i just have to figure out why i'm down and fix it

-i just hate it when people whine... i spent a whole drunken new years being that guy.