so i sit here, durring the busiest time in my life so far, blogging, yes blogging. why? because i think that i said it to begin with... i put stuff on here so that i don't have to talk about it to everyone. So here goes.

Me and Kari are over. I really didn't see it coming until i spent 2 horrible days without any contact form her not knowing what to think. our conversation on monday led me to belive that she was just wanting a break, but after the 2 days she called it off.

i dont want to make it seem like i had no part in this, it was my fault for going to fast, for falling to hard. but it was ultimatly her decission. so we finaly talked about it and somehow ended laughing and joking at the end ov our breakup conversation.

I hate the fact that its over, but somehow i'm ok with it. i don't know if i'm in denial or its that i have a million and a half other things taht are keeping my mind from dwelling on the pain. its probably both. i thought i had somthing that would last for years, but 2 1/2 months later i get leveled, then 3-5 hours after, i somehow am back to doing what needs to get done. i dont know if i'm 'over' what happened or not, but i hope its not going to creep up on me and hit me later.

i know it won't, i'm laid back like that. shit happens, and it happens for a reason.

And if its ment to be theres the old quote that every person going through a breakup HATES to hear, "if you love somthing, let it go. if it returns, then you know it's right"

so there, a blog post iun under 20 minutes with 3 phone call inturuptions!

guh, NO REST FOR THE WICKED!!!







p.s. i got a part in a directing one scene, it should be FUCKING hilarious! more to come later.