I would have LOVED to bed Dawn Rochelle tonight...but i couldn't.

one - she was drunk.
two - she is a theatre girl, wich means they have all tease and no follow through.
three - i'm dating Kristina.

for some reason i have this overwelming urge to just FUCK, but i can't just do that until i have a decent conection with that person. yea, i'm a being of sexuality, but i do have morals.

i hate that sometimes.

Its not that i want to be unfaithfull, i do really like Kris, but the last time i thought i had a 'connection' with someone i got hurt pretty bad. not initaly, because i fell so hard for her, but by the fact that because we were just friends, my feelings spilled out on paper werent important to read and "would cause stress"...thanks for shutting me off to others.

i hate being a dick about it, and the last time we talked it wasn't the best ending for a friendship, but it did give me some closure.

so she didn't read the email that was how i felt about everything. everyone loves getting letters in the mail right? maybe that'll get a responce on how much i've changed.



for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.


i loved so hard that now its hard for me to love again.



Family: Got the 'you shouldn't speed' lecture for the millionth time, so what if i went in the ditch
Fraternity: Congrats Gamma Nu! now i become a historian...
Social: i saw the taco night gang and the theatre gang at the brass rail.. i miss them all
Money: delaying paying the water bill, yet again, so i can actually eat
Work: 2 days off.....BLISS
Females: missing having a conection, but reluctant to get one because they can cause damage
Drama: meh... not enough to write down
School: ...i am not doing so hot...
Friends: i miss them all! but i can hang out more i swear!
Health: decent, now that i have money for food, i bought poptarts
Song: the soothing sounds of explosions of vice city
Last Laugh: Dawn rochelle Tucker, drunk at the bars