so in responce to kari's coment,

your right, i don't mean to make you look like a bad person here. its just gotten to the point that i'm pretty close to not giving a damn. yea, i was ticked at the time, but you had no reason to do anything special. i guess at the time i thought there might be somthing there. ah well. no biggie.

i'm just so happy i'm complacent about things now. i have so much other shit to worry about. i'm not dwelling anymore. i feel a bit more empowered now that i'm not a snivling, whining wreck. not that i was outwardly, but i felt like that for a while. i'm over it. i can listen to all the songs, i can think about all the times and not be.... well, not myself.

i think the main reason is that i know what i'm doing for the whole year. i know theres nothing left for me in Whitewater, why try and start somthing serious. why even atempt to start anything not serious?

i dont even know what i'm posting about anymore... theres only one thing i really want to know about us, and that i really don't want to know. you've moved on, so have i. i'm not lashing out at you, never ment to even if it seemed like it.

its nice to not have anything to say anymore.




ok, now to a post.


so i've been keepin myself occupied allot lately, with nothing much. i almost finished Bill's place, it looks FUCKING pimp. i love what i do.

i'm not coming back to UWW. i know i know, about time you figured that out. but it took a while for my ego to tell me to quit. but i'm still gonna be here, then in madison with Dennis in the fall... but the summer is still up in the air. I'd love to live out in NYC again, but that fell through. So i'm looking into living in Chicago with U-boat. this would be AWESoME. but more than likely it would end up me passing out on Fish's sofa.

tired... i'm soooo tired, just in general.


BUT PSYCHED! going to chicago to....marrow... technically. kickin house party and hopefully i'll get out and see arround the city saturday. i'm excited, and i hope nothing bad happens to the party.


i need to get in shape... cause i could be DAMN sexy. could be...